I have felt over the last few days that my head, and my heart are trying to unite. They have seemed divided for some time. I think as I experience this, it's interesting to me that we have to allow our minds to teach us, in small tender moments.
It seems like every day I am being taught so much more then even I understand. Sometimes life isn't fair, and sometimes things don't work out the way we want. I have certainly had my fair share of that happening. I hope that as I near the end of this health trial, my next chapter of life will be able to come, and happiness will surround me, and my little family.
I am not the same person I was yesterday, a month ago, and certainly a much better person than I was a year ago. I am anxious to be healthy finally to be able to work hard, and put myself in the life I have always wanted. The things I want seem more clear than ever! I do really believe the best is yet to come, and there are hard decisions to be made, and definetly situations that will push me to my brink; but the rewards will be worth it. I am worth it. I deserve the best, and can't settle for less!
My battle is making sure than I take care of myself, while remaining true to being the guy who cares deeply for those around me, even if they don't show me the same respect. I determine my attitude, and my reactions. Someone else's inability to see my worth doesn't make me any less valuable.
