Love you all!
Dusty
Sunday, December 13, 2015
Friday, December 11, 2015
Truth. Honesty. Integrity
Truth. Honesty. Integrity.
Words that are more than words. They are qualities that seem to have been lost in our generation. It seems everyone is just out to 'look' the best they can! The story you tell in word, and in action in our lives seems more and more to be a facade. Its easy to go and buy a new car, new shiny clothes, and fancy makeup to make you feel better about who you are, but I don't think it means a whole lot honestly.
Actions speak louder than words. You ever heard that saying before? I would like to take it a step further. Who you are when no one is watching, and the REAL truths that make up who you are are the things that matter in this life! THOSE things are the real defining characteristics that make up your happiness level. You can lie to yourself, and to those around you all you want. In the end it will only equal more unhappiness, and more discontent with yourself, and that will not lead to anything positive, I assure you.
I have been a part of this wave of trying to fit it, and look at my shiny new iPhone. I have also realized that they are a distraction from the real things that are going on. I am tired of seeing people around me tell me what they think I want to hear. I am tired of trying to figure out if someone is lying to me. Just be honest, tell me the truth, and if that happens, I will be more than happy to be completely open with you in return.
My main goal at this moment in my life, after being changed so much by this #csfleak, is to be honest, faithful, and true; ALWAYS! That isn't easy, but I am deeply committed to it, because I know from experience that it equals the highest level of happiness in my life. I am also going to be less, and less welcoming to those people around me who aren't being that, to me, and in their own life.
Just some things that are on my mind this night! I hope you agree. We nee more Truth, Honesty, and Integrity in our world.
Words that are more than words. They are qualities that seem to have been lost in our generation. It seems everyone is just out to 'look' the best they can! The story you tell in word, and in action in our lives seems more and more to be a facade. Its easy to go and buy a new car, new shiny clothes, and fancy makeup to make you feel better about who you are, but I don't think it means a whole lot honestly.
Actions speak louder than words. You ever heard that saying before? I would like to take it a step further. Who you are when no one is watching, and the REAL truths that make up who you are are the things that matter in this life! THOSE things are the real defining characteristics that make up your happiness level. You can lie to yourself, and to those around you all you want. In the end it will only equal more unhappiness, and more discontent with yourself, and that will not lead to anything positive, I assure you.
I have been a part of this wave of trying to fit it, and look at my shiny new iPhone. I have also realized that they are a distraction from the real things that are going on. I am tired of seeing people around me tell me what they think I want to hear. I am tired of trying to figure out if someone is lying to me. Just be honest, tell me the truth, and if that happens, I will be more than happy to be completely open with you in return.
My main goal at this moment in my life, after being changed so much by this #csfleak, is to be honest, faithful, and true; ALWAYS! That isn't easy, but I am deeply committed to it, because I know from experience that it equals the highest level of happiness in my life. I am also going to be less, and less welcoming to those people around me who aren't being that, to me, and in their own life.
Just some things that are on my mind this night! I hope you agree. We nee more Truth, Honesty, and Integrity in our world.
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
Know your insecurities...and BEE strong!
Today has been quite a day. As I woke up I could feel it, physically today was going to be challenging. It was one of the worse days I have had in months. Sometimes it effects just my head, like headaches, and pressure that are hard to control, but go away as quick as I lay down. Today though my vision was quite blurry, and my whole body ached. Its hard I think because I expect so much of myself, and I always have. It is in some ways why I made it out of my childhood as good off as I did. Its hard too because I know people around me expect a lot out of me too, and that adds a lot of pressure, again mostly my own fault. I will learn to deal with this, as I am learning to deal with so much change in my life. I do know that when this trial is behind me, I will come out the other end a much better human being.
This message has been on my mind a little bit tonight as I have thought about my life, and the issues that surround it. I do really agree with this quote. I think though if I am being open and honest with myself one of the biggest things that hold me back is my fear that nobody around me truly loves me the way that I love them. I come from a broken home, in every letter of the word. My Mom and Dad divorced when I was young. I wont go into too much detail but I didnt really get the love that I think a child should have, it was always about what they needed, and where they needed it. I babysat, and helped to raise my younger siblings, and didnt ever really feel like my Mom was there. With my Dad, it was never enough. The two times per year that I saw him, and he made sure everyone around me knew I wasn't planned, and he didn't want kids. My life is much better now, and my relationship with my parents is better. I use those experiences as fuel, and I know without any question I will be a better parent. Really that is the goal in this life I think. To give your offspring a better life than you had. While there are things that I wished were different with my family situation, I know that especially my mom worked really hard to make my life better than her youth, and for that I will always be grateful, and those are the memories I choose to remember!
I mention these things because it's so important to be real about your past, and your insecurities that hold you back. You need to know them better than you know anything. Knowing mine makes me grateful for the things I DO have, and the people that ARE in my life. We can't fix our life's issues in one swipe. They can be only changed one issue, and ine step at a time.
If you don't already; please be open at least to yourself about your insecurities.
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